Job

I have recently started to apply for my first job. As a teenager, it is the time to start learning responsibility, preparing yourself for the real world. I've been putting off this daunting task for as long as I could manage, but it is difficult to enjoy a night out with friends when your mom stops giving you money. I decided to face the inevitable and start the application process. However, I quickly found that I wasn't able to finish any application without the help of my mom. I needed her assistance to fill out these forms in which I'm supposed to prove myself a worthy candidate of the job. It made me question how I could be able to acquire a job when I can't even fill out the application.

With the junior year college search comes talk about careers. I am expected to already have my life planned out at sixteen years old. There are no conceivable professions that I can think of that I think I would excel at or would really enjoy working as. The future is so undefined for me, I couldn't even tell you how I expect the next year to be, let alone the rest of my life.

Next year I will be taking an advanced placement graphics class. I've always enjoyed graphics and when my mom brought this up as a career possibility, I can't deny I didn't think about it. A graphic designer sounds like an amazing job to have, especially since I enjoy the work. However, my response, as with all other possibilities is no. I reject this choice because I look at my peers and fear that I'm not good enough. I fear that I don't have the skill or ability to become a graphic designer. So basically, I'm trying to take myself out of the game before I have the chance to lose. I don't want to completely close myself off from this pathway yet, as with most other directions. I need to keep myself open to all options so I will be ready to embrace my future when it comes.